Monday, July 07, 2008

Saying Goodbye

This post is for my sweet Keesa. Last night I sat with her and pet her while she was euthanized. it was one of the hardest things I have had to do. She stopped eating and drinking awhile ago so we took her to the vet and he did some tests and said she was fine. She wasn't. She just got worse. I won't go into details but last night I decided to take her into an emergency vet. She was suffering and I decided to just let her go. She was such a sweet little cat and we miss her so much. I cried so hard last night and still have been today. After her surgery to get declawed and spayed she really wasn't the same. I feel bad b/c I feel like I could have done more for her but the vet makes it so hard to. It costs so much just to run tests before they can even treat. For those of you who know me I love my cats. Love, love , love them. They are apart of the family so this was so hard to do. She was only 1 year old. Well we love you Keesa. Dan wanted me to put in some of the nicknames she was given. Oh for those of you who know me...my cats always have quite a few nicknames. Keesa Kat, Keesa Splat, Splen splan, Splantananious, Melia called her Meow, The Splen or the Splan, Splant, Velcro cat...that is all for now. Oh it is amazing how strangers play a role in our lives. After the tech told me the test results for FIV and leukemia were negative she gave me 2 options...eauthanize or keep testing. I was crying and told her I don't know if I can afford so much but don't want her to suffer. So I turn to sit and there is this lady sitting there crying and she says "It's ok if you let her go." She said some other stuff and we talked but for some reason I felt calmer after she spoke to me. She actually really helped me just by being there. Funny, isn't it? Anyway, thanks Mom and M2 for calling me today. Ok also just to make my week start off even worse my brand new phone just stops working last night so I have to take it in today. I have only had it 3 weeks and of course they sold me the last model that will be made so I have to sit there in the store for almost 2 hours trying to get another one and all that. They were being thieves and I was so tired and emotinal from last night that it just wasn't a fun time for me or them! AAAHHH!! Ok I think I have written enough for now.

6 comments:

Jeni, Brian & Natalie said...

OHHHH Robyn and Dan, I am so sorry you guys! I would call you right now but I lost my phone and Brian isn't home!
But really you made me cry and that is so hard to a loved animal go. I am so sorry.

Nana said...

Very sad to let her go, but it was the right thing, and I'm so glad that nice lady was there to help you through it.

Grandma Frisby said...

Sunshine, Abbey, "Sug", and Brittany . . . your love of cats has always been boundless! I'm glad someone was with you. The lady's compassion and understanding were comforting and calming! Keesa will be missed, but never forgotten!!! We'll remember her as a little kitten, growing up with Melia!!

Proud Momma said...

Sorry R2...I hadn't heard anything about this! It is always sad losing one of our animals...they are just so innocent. Love you guys

Mike Karyn & Nash said...

Sorry for the loss. I really loved that silly little cat. It was fun watching Melia chase her around!!
I'm sorry I haven't been able to call much..I've never been busier in my whole life but you are always in my thoughts every day.
Oh..it was so cute today as I was sitting in Denali's going over some crap that happened I look over at the wall and see your picture with Melia, Dan and Nash! Remember when you were here..I guess Claudio took your picture. So I had the biggest smile on my face..totally made my day!

The RC Miller Clan said...

Sorry to hear about Keesa. I am sad for you. I won't tell you what rick would say if he knew! He's a cat hater. I am neutral. But I love love love kittens! Thats for sure and Keesa was soooo cute. Well, I'm sure you're feeling better now anyways, and that lady being there, that's a neat experience.